THIS IS MY 5TH POSTS ON THIS BLOG.
I don't have anything great to shared to all of my readers. just a sad love story. the 'Unrequited Love'. just hearing the title i know you guys will said that i am such a pathetic girl. Yeah, maybe I am. actually, there's a guy, he is older almost 7 years than me. Too old, you think? Naa...but I always think that love doesn't count by ages. :) I don't know how I can fall for him. Hey, do you know? we have actually NEVER meet before. It is true that we used to see each other through video call on Skype and Facebook. We do started know each other through Skype. He is such a nice guy. We have been friends for 1 year and 43 days. I am writing this now, to describing my feeling for missing him. He whoosh just like that a week before Ramadhan. Last year, I'm aware that he is going to lay low. but, this year, he told me NOTHING. He just dissappeared like that. I don't know what is actually wrong with him.
Do you guys know what makes me fall for him? His caring, loving and masculine personality. He always asked me to share my problems with him. Let me share you this, one day, I fought with my mother upon something that really matters and sensitive. I cried alone that day. I sent him a chat on Facebook, but I got no replied at all. That time, I felt so bad, hurt and pathetic. I need somebody to calm me down. I need someone to hear my heart voices. A few hours later, while I'm still crying, there's a beep sound on my Facebook chat. It was him! I feel nothing that time. So, I just replied thoughtlessly.
"Hi, what do you mean by scolding by someone you love?", he started. Then, I just replied, "Nothing. Just foget it. Bye", "Are you okay, Zara?", he said worriedly. I smiled even he cannot see it. "I'm okay, don't worry", Oh God! I am such a liar. That time, my tears were rolling down over my cheeks. "Come on dear, please be honest. I know something is wrong", He don't believe me when I said I am okay that time. I wonder how he noticed that. "Nothing, so what are you doing now?", I tried to change the topic.
"Let's cam?", he said surprisedly. "When?", I replied. "Now.", its a trapped. He really wanna see whether if I am okay or not. So, for not making him more worried, I said Yes. But still , I am still afraid if he would recognize my 'red' eyes. I just prayed he'll not noticed it. Then, he start forwarding the call. "Hey!You lying, you said you are okay. So, why your eyes are red?", he said it after the cam start on going. I just smile. "I am okay Wir. Don't worry. Maybe because I'm tired or sleepy.", Its really unreasonable reason. I know it, but i have no other choice. "It's okay, share first", he said, . It really melting my heart. "We have agreed there's no secret right>? Even you said, there's no wall between friends. You should keep on your words zara", he said it. Sounds naughty, but its caring after all. "Okay..okayy", I laughed.
"Good girl. So, what is it?", he said excitedly. then I tell him everything from beginning till its end. Wow! I really feel relieved after shared it to him. "Okay?", he said. I lifted my eyebrows. Doing that 'double-jerk'. "Thanks", I replied. He chuckled. "No probs", he said. That time, I feel like I am in a dream. Sweet dream.
But, that just a past. Only the memories that left. We all live in present right? So, that's have means nothing now. I can just imagine the sweetness in it, not live with it. Dear, if only you read this. I maybe feel ashamed but I am okay because there will comes a day where i want you to know how I feel about you. I miss you dear. I really do...
