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-Love: Zara-

I Miss You... My Sweety Pie

THIS IS MY 5TH POSTS ON THIS BLOG.

                  I don't have anything great to shared to all of my readers. just a sad love story. the 'Unrequited Love'. just hearing the title i know you guys will said that i am such a pathetic girl. Yeah, maybe I am. actually, there's a guy, he is older almost 7 years than me. Too old, you think? Naa...but I always think that love doesn't count by ages. :) I don't know how I can fall for him. Hey, do you know? we have actually NEVER meet before. It is true that we used to see each other through video call on Skype and Facebook. We do started know each other through Skype. He is such a nice guy. We have been friends for 1 year and 43 days. I am writing this now, to describing my feeling for missing him. He whoosh just like that a week before Ramadhan. Last year, I'm aware that he is going to lay low. but, this year, he told me NOTHING. He just dissappeared like that. I don't know what is actually wrong with him.

  

                Do you guys know what makes me fall for him? His caring, loving and masculine personality. He always asked me to share my problems with him. Let me share you this, one day, I fought with my mother upon something that really matters and sensitive. I cried alone that day. I sent him a chat on Facebook, but I got no replied at all. That time, I felt so bad, hurt and pathetic. I need somebody to calm me down. I need someone to hear my heart voices. A few hours later, while I'm still crying, there's a beep sound on my Facebook chat. It was him! I feel nothing that time. So, I just replied thoughtlessly.

"Hi, what do you mean by scolding by someone you love?", he started. Then, I just replied, "Nothing. Just foget it. Bye", "Are you okay, Zara?", he said worriedly. I smiled even he cannot see it. "I'm okay, don't worry", Oh God! I am such a liar. That time, my tears were rolling down over my cheeks. "Come on dear, please be honest. I know something is wrong", He don't believe me when I said I am okay that time. I wonder how he noticed that.  "Nothing, so what are you doing now?", I tried to change the topic.

        "Let's cam?", he said surprisedly. "When?", I replied. "Now.", its a trapped. He really wanna see whether if I am okay or not. So, for not making him more worried, I said Yes. But still , I am still afraid if he would recognize my 'red' eyes. I just prayed he'll not noticed it. Then, he start forwarding the call. "Hey!You lying, you said you are okay. So, why your eyes are red?", he said it after the cam start on going. I just smile. "I am okay Wir. Don't worry. Maybe because I'm tired or sleepy.", Its really unreasonable reason. I know it, but i have no other choice. "It's okay, share first", he said, . It really melting my heart. "We have agreed there's no secret right>? Even you said, there's no wall between friends. You should keep on your words zara", he said it. Sounds naughty, but its caring after all. "Okay..okayy", I laughed.

          "Good girl. So, what is it?", he said excitedly. then I tell him everything from beginning till its end. Wow! I really feel relieved after shared it to him. "Okay?", he said. I lifted my eyebrows. Doing that 'double-jerk'. "Thanks", I replied. He chuckled. "No probs", he said. That time, I feel like I am in a dream. Sweet dream. 

           But, that just a past. Only the memories that left. We all live in present right? So, that's have means nothing now. I can just imagine the sweetness in it, not live with it. Dear, if only you read this. I maybe feel ashamed but I am okay because there will comes a day where i want you to know how I feel about you. I miss you dear. I really do... 

My Lovely Night

I've never imagined this is how it last.. I didn't mean it last forever..but..after what we've been through together..this is how u ended it up by urself... do u have any idea how much i like you? do u ever try to understand how i really do love you.. I miss you all days we're not together.. I miss the time you asked me..how i've been doing.. I miss the time you asked me how my days going through.. Am i Okay.. In a good or bad condition.. Give me advices and support for every single things I'm facing in my life.. I admit that we've known not for a long time.. but we've know many things about each others more than best friends...I can't ever say I LOVE YOU because I know and I'm totally certained it will not end in good way instead ruining the relationship between us. I'm promising myself that I'll try to be happy even I'm just going to be fren of you.. and got no more than that than I have to lose you for my entire life... Be happy my dear.. :)

ZA-r-a

My dear Friend~ I've fallen for you

I shouldn't have done that 
I should've ignored it 
Like something I could not see 
Like something I cannot see 
Ah... yeah 
I shouldn't have ever looked at you 
I should've ran away 
I should've acted like I didn't hear 
Like something I could not hear 
Like something I cannot hear ah... yeah... 
I shouldn't have listened to my heart at all 
Without a word 
You showed me what love is 
Without a word 
You gave me your love 
You even made me hold my breath 
Waiting for you 
But you ran away like this 
Without a word, you left me 
Without a word, you threw me away 
What should I say next? 
My closed lips were surprised 
Coming without words 

Why does it hurt so much? 
Why does it keep on hurting me? 
Even though you're not here anymore 
Though everything is the same 
Without a word 
You showed me love 

Without a word 
You gave me your love 
You made me hold my breath 
Waiting for you 
But you run away like this 
Without a word, you left me 
Without a word you threw me away 
What should I say next? 
My closed lips were surprised 
Without a word my tears fell 
Without a word my heart breaks 

Without a word, I will wait for your love 
Without a word, I'm hurt because of love 
I zone out 
I became a fool 
I cried as I look up at the sky 
Without a word, goodbyes found me 
Without a word, goodbyes came to me 
I think my heart was surprised 
I couldn't even prepare to send you away 
Without a word it came 
Without a word it went 
Without a word it left 
Like a fever before 
I'll only hurt you for a while 
And will only left you scars in the end

My dear Friend~I've fallen for you (2)

You sent it! You sent the chat! I can't believe it yet. Am I dreaming right now? I don't think so as I bite my finger and it feels hurt. Wow!! See,told ya..I was like an insane whenever we chat. I was so happy even you just asking when will I back to hostel again. You concern me that much. Haha! :) I'm so happy.. I don't know how to tell you. I don't know how to describe it. It's really amazing you sent it first. Do you know how crazy I am when the beep sounds shows your text pop up?? Thanks Wirzy.. Thanks.. I'm glad for it..

But, still,you don't know yet what I feel for you. Bout my feeling towards you. But, I guess it should be like this now. It should be left unspoken.. :) Let time decide it... I believe if you are mine,then no matter when, no matter what circumstances...you'll be mine... Dear Wirzy.. I really hope this relation will last forever. Although we just know regularly 6 months above. upon each other. But i believe that we have shared more than we could've ever imagined...

Don't get me the wrong way...haha! It's like, about our past. Our dream..Our hobbies.. We shared kinda same stories behind.. Almost... Am I right?

Whatever! Now, I could sleep with smile again. But I warned you baby...don't hurt my feelings again .
or else my sweet dream will turn out to be nightmares!!
hahhahaahah :p Lol~!

Nonsense~~

Well...do you remember that I used to ask you whether is that true that girl and boys couldn't be friend, or in simple words, IMPOSSIBLE!... But you just smile and said.. We prove it wrong..
 And Wirzy, Do you know how much it scratch my feelings?

No~!You don't... Yet,you don't want to know too... :( It's okay.. I accepted it. Thanks again for giving me those supportation. I'm really appreciate it. I like you no matter waht you are... :)

Wuargghh!! *yawns* I thinks its enough for now.... Good ni
ght sweetheart.. :) <3

Sincerely:

Zara~

My dear Friend~I've fallen for you.

I miss you... there I said it again. I'm waiting for the beep chat from you on facebook,but there's no. I wonder why is it. Where are you now. I miss your careness even we are just friends.. Although We just known each other just for 6 months. But, I don't know why and how I could fall in Love with you. You told me that you just tought me as your friend and lilttle sister as you was 7 years older than me. And for that, I have to lie,saying that I tought you just as my brother and my friend. Do you know, how nuts I am to say that I tought you more than that? If I was lost my mind that night, I know that we'll never be friends anymore. You told me almost of your life story, but I barely think, do you share it with another girls too? I don't know, and I'm sure if I'm asking about it,you will said, "Why ?", that's kind an expected answer of you. I was thinking over and over again why you never see what I feel for you. But,at the end of it..I was so grateful that You don't realised it yet. Because I'm afraid that you'll leave me. Really...Afraid ..

Do you ever know what it feel when we chat together? I was like an insane girl,smilling over and over even you just sent morning wishes. I love to bother you everytimes you come online, and yesterday you asked .." Is it that fun to bother me?", and I said, " Yeah,you are kinda funny ". Which part? you asked.. "The way you care to me", I said it directly..  I know Wir, that your heart was broken before, me too. But I was hoping that I can put them all together back if you can accept me as yours. I like you. I know,it's too early for that. But, this come suddenly without I'm asking about it. I never wanted this too happen,after all. I don't care about our ages. Cause, I believe, ages doesn't matter in a relationship.. The way you treat me make me fell for you. Yeah Wir, I've fallen for you. I can't believe that I'll in love with guy who is older than me and my 6th brother as well. The way you advice me,seems like you know me too close. I know,you might think its cliche... But,trust me.. it's all true... I'm not lying or playing game now. I was pouring directly what I felt right now. . Yet, we also like many same things..like a song genre,movies genre..fav foods and drinks,hobby. Can't you ever noticed it?

You know what, That day,when you told me where I was appear in your dream, it was really happy things happen to me. I was so happy till I'm sleeping with smile on my face on that day. And, I don't know why, why your face always appearing in my dream too..And the most craziest after all is, when I woke up ,there was a chat from you that I waited till  I fell asleep. It was excitening to me, but  I know, you just fell nothing about what happens between us.

I memorised and remembered everythings about you, but you seems not care much about what I'm telling you. I know it's not a big deal. As you say that you easier forget about something. My tears is with me, flow over my face while I'm writing this . It's not that  I wanted to have your sympathize.. just wanted you to know, how much I feel for you. Can't you see that?

Who catch me up when I fell down?
Who give me advices when others don't care?
Who always asks me,HOw are you?
Who's the one,that always sleep in front your laptop just because chat with me?
Who's the guy that completely insane when telling his past to me?
Who's the guy that always wanna sure that I'm ok?
Who's Wir?Who's that guy?? Tell me..!~

Yeah,it's you..it's you..!~ ..You hear that?! Arghh.. This is sucks! I think that I have completely lost my mind now. Do you know why? Because, I've fallen for guy that I know that he'll never love me back. The guy that always said, "I wish you will find the best guy in your life,someday,somehow". The guy that always telling me that I'm still underage.

I admitted that.. I'm underage..but,I told you, ages doesn't matter. I can think like an adults. I can understand adults way. I knowall that. Why you always tought that I was like other 16 girls? Why Wir? Why? I need you to know..no..I want you to know..wahtever it is, I'll not stopping from liking you. Even you asked me too. Even I know I was nuts for doing that crazy things,loving someone that I know and sure will not love me back. But it's okay. I accept it. Bear it in your mind Wirzy.. I like you, no matter what you are. How bad your past before. How much you just taught me as your little sister and friend. I'll still taught you more than both of that. I know, I was like risking my life through all this. Cause. one day you'll getting married with the one you'll love her with all your heart. The one and only that you'll pour your love to. But, still if that times not appear yet, I'll not stop liking and loving you. Never!

And what I hope is, you'll never found this blog. Never! Never know about what I'm writing. Never know what I feel for you,so that I can continue pretend to treat you as friend and pretend comfort to be treated as friend...

That's all..thanks for appear in my life... Thanks,for be my friend. Thanks for helping me alot. And, thanks too because you never get mad even I was seems always bothering you. Almost everyday. :(


Sincerely;

Zara~